June 12, 2010

7. sheepish return

Posted in drivel at 10:48 am by M

Once again a gentle nudge was needed to bring me back to you! (Thanks Sass!)  Yet again, I apologise.  I lurk, I don’t comment.  I observe.   I stay up to date.  I’m just not ready to participate yet.

A lot has happened since last we spoke;
B and I headed to WA for Easter and had a great time.  Another trip to WA was needed just a few short weeks later when my grandmother passed away at the age of 90.  The 3 of us made the trek and stayed for 4 days, it was so bittersweet – a celebration of a life well-lived, grieving for my last living grandparent.  I’m so very grateful that B and I had spent time with her at Easter.

Of course, there has been ensuing drama.  The will, blah blah blah – and I’m well out of it.  Thankfully, in this instance, I live on the other side of the country.  Money really does bring out the worst in people, doesn’t it?

Therapy is hard.  Seriously hard.  The PTSD has meant we have to revisit a lot of painful, intense stuff that I’d long ago buried.  I’m exhausted emotionally.  I’m not looking after myself physically – all this has to change.  I owe it to myself, I owe it to my son.  Small steps…

B is, as usual, amazing.  A bright, happy baby that just shines.  In 2 short weeks he will be 1 year old.  1!!  I still cannot believe he is mine.  A bout of bronchitis had him unwell for a couple of weeks, triggering all sorts of anxiety in me, but he’s on the other side of it now and back to his normal self.

Thursday was my last day of work.  Yay me!  Seriously, that job has sucked my soul dry and done my freaking head in.  I had to get out and I’m so glad it’s all over.  I’m now set up as an independent contractor and have organised a few jobs here and there to tide me over.  I need my life back and I’m well on my way!!!

So, tell me your news?