April 3, 2011

I have no idea what number this post is…

Posted in Uncategorized at 11:16 pm by M

I’m typing this on my iPhone as we fly to my home state for a couple of weeks break. Well, not break as such because my sister & her hubby are on a 5 week cruise & my mother is looking after her 3 & 5 year old children so I’m taking over for a couple of weeks, but a break nonetheless.
I’m still processing the whole ‘no more kids for us’ situation; & I hate it. But there’s just nothing we can do to change it. I really hate that the decision was taken out of our hands, that we didn’t sit down & have a conversation & decide that we didn’t want more children. It is what it is & I understand that, I just hate it. I had such hope.
But my true hope & love is currently pulling the window shades up & down, & that’s what gives me perspective.